Know Thyself

IMG_0579This is the deal…after 31 years on this earth, I think I know a little bit about myself. Not about human nature or even that thing called “life”…but just about me.

I know that without breaks, I break down. I know that without sleep, I slip. I know that when I feel overwhelmed, the best thing to do is to be still. I know what to do about me.

Yet, I don’t do what I know. I listen to the voices around me, those that say I need to be productive, those that want something tangible from me. I listen to the voices that continue to dispense criticism, those that say I’m not made out for this scholarly thing, that I’m inherently lazy and not up for this challenge. I listen to the voices that say I must write now, today, this very minute. I listen to the voices that say, “that to-do list isn’t getting any shorter.” I listen to the voices saying that the fact that I cared for my sick baby today means nothing, the fact that I cooked for my family means nothing, the fact that I washed clothes and washed dishes mean nothing. I listen to them.

I listen to them. And I sit in Starbucks. And I stare at the keyboard, at the screen, at the other people in the room apparently getting things done. And I feel like crap.

This isn’t healthy. I’m going home.

One thought on “Know Thyself

  1. The title of this post is very much important for a person life.We gather knowledge various subject but we don’t serious to know thyself. I think very little number of people realise this matter .For this reason we don’t develop our mind as a helpful person in the world.

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