I’ve noticed lately that I’ve been accepting friend requests from law professors. Folks perhaps that I met on the market, or just colleagues of other professors.
I talk a lot about mental health on here, in particular my own struggle with bipolar II disorder. It’s concerned me a bit to widen my “friends” on here as I’m the most junior of junior scholars. I don’t want me sharing this part of myself with the wider legal academic to mean fewer opportunities going forward.
So many of you who love me have questioned what I do on here, for the same reasons I’ve discussed above. So I have to make a decision. And Ive decided to keep doing what I’m doing. I know there can be professional ramifications. And it’s not that I don’t care. But it’s because it’s too dangerous to not keep doing this.
Over the past 10+ years of being on here and sharing my story and my challenges, at least once a month a friend dms me asking for help for themselves or someone they love. And I’m so happy to do so. This struggle is so often fought in the dark, by ourselves. And it shouldn’t be.
I share my story bc I want ppl to know that what I’ve done is possible even with what I’ve been through and go through. And I have only gotten here through a lot of therapy and medications and reflection. And most importantly, people. People who call me and hug me and love on me. People who help me strategize. People who help me figure out if I should ask for more time on a deadline, or tell me what I need to do to get my kids into school or read my work and put up with my overblown devastation.
But to get there, I have to be honest. Its not me saying “oh I just need to be myself.” There are a lot of other parts of me that I don’t share on here. But this part is important to me. So if there is a law professor on here that will think less of me either for my mental health challenges or because I share them, please unfriend me. No hard feelings.