Progress Report

Prayer works. I talked to God, I meditated in stillness, I listened for His still, small whisper. And He moved through me, and through the advice of others. During my ten days, I cancelled all kid’s evening activities going forward, and consolidated all our credit card debt with our credit union. Saving money + saving […]

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The Kids Will Be All Right

The kids will be all right. The kids will be alright. The kids will be all right. I’m trying to convince myself of this sentence. This short sentence of five or six words, depending on how you spell “alright” (are they two different words/phrases ‘alright’ vs. ‘all right’?) It is these five or six words […]

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Break Time

I’ve decided to give myself a little break. No dissertation work, or even thoughts about the dissertation. A dissertation vacation you might say. Why? Because I don’t want to end up in the hospital again, away from my family. Because I don’t want to have a miserable year, caught in a slump that has me […]

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ABD #19: Daily Bread

Hi. It’s been a minute (well five days.) I really wanted this to be every day, not counting weekends, but that’s too much to expect of myself. So it will be regular, but not necessarily daily. And that’s okay (says the reformed perfectionist). The depression has lifted. Thank God. I don’t feel constantly pulled underwater […]

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ABD #10: I Did It

I did it. I stayed out of the bed all day. I worked from 9:15 – 11:15 am. I coded an interview. I’m ready to do the analytical write-up tomorrow. I walked home, turned on some music, and sang from 11:30 – 1:15 pm. I met with my son’s teacher from 1:30 – 2pm, rediscovered […]

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ABD #9: The Creativity Cure

I picked up a new book at the bookstore the other day while my daughter looked for a book for a birthday party. It’s called “The Creativity Cure” and while it’s based on psychoanalysis (which I don’t really need) and is for those with mild to moderate depression (which is not me – I’m in […]

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ABD #6: the best part is Ice cream

My day: 9:30 am wake up 9:55 am drive to soccer game 10:30 am — 12:30 cheer on daughter at soccer 1:00 pm nap 2:30 pm doctors appointment 3pm nap 7 pm encourage children to go to bed 8:30 pm 10:00 pm bed Depression sucks. Anxiety sucks.

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ABD Day #2 : I Am Not A Stay-At-Home

One of the things about dissertating is that my time is wide open. No one tells me where to be or what to do. There are no classes, no assignments, no group meetings. To dissertate well, one must be super protective of one’s time. I suck at protecting my time. Case in point: I am […]

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ABD Day #1: Got to Keep On Goin’ On

So I’ve got to keep on moving on This first day was more productive than I anticipated, despite some early challenges. Challenge #0 is every day’s challenge: The 17-month-old and his 6:30 a.m. wake-up poop. Challenge #1: I woke with a racing heart and upset stomach. That’s my version of anxiety. It’s physical and never-ending. […]

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All But….Dissertation? Day 0

September 22, 2013   Howdy folks! I know it’s been a VERY long time since this blog has been active, but I’ve been really busy. Let me catch you up on the goings on of the last year: 1. I had a baby. Baby A was born in April of 2012, and he has been […]

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