I’ve Got That Bipolar Feeling…

One reason I’ve always done well in school is due to the structure. Many graduate students working on a dissertation know this feeling well: as soon as the coursework is done, and time is unstructured by classes and papers, one can find an infinite number of things to do besides writing the dissertation. Now, I […]

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I Never Intended to be a Christian Blogger

I don’t consider myself a “Christian blogger.” That label seems to be laced with all sorts of baggage that I don’t want to take on. I don’t want to come across as a “Jesus freak,” someone who can’t stop talking about God and who sees God in everything everywhere all the time. Someone who is unapproachable […]

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In the Darkness

I wrote this last year, right around this time. On this first full workday of Daylight Savings Time (or the end of it, I don’t know), I felt this downward pull/push. But I’m also mindful of the treasures and lessons in the darkness. I needed to read this again. Maybe you need it too.

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Who I Am Not

When I start to drift down, I tend to forget. I forget being happy. I forget that people love me. I forget that every down day doesn’t mean I’m entering a depression. Most of all, I forget who I am. I am a black woman with great hair 🙂 I am an awesome mother to […]

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On Pride

There are a lot of things I have to proud of. Degrees, kids, marriage, friends. I do those things well. But much of the time, I’m proud to get out of my bed in the morning and not get back into it until bedtime. I’m proud to take a shower and wash my face and […]

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Rolling with the Homies

Despite having a major mental illness most of my life, I’m not your typical mentally ill person who might be socially awkward. I don’t present as mentally ill. I’m also an introvert, which people who do not know we we’ll find hard to believe. I am pretty socially adept, and don’t have any issues standing […]

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Useful

I thank many of you for your sweet words these past few days, especially those of you who know me. I write because I want to be useful. I write because I know my words have helped someone. I write because there are people in my life who are going through shit and now that […]

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the times you let your children down

I work crazy long hours. The hours aren’t actually crazy, but since my commute is 1.5 hours each way, it feels crazy. I see my children in the morning before they go to school (had to work my way into that flexibility) and then for an hour or so when I get home before they […]

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In the Beginning

I was a sensitive child. I felt every emotion like a tsunami, full blast. I was a crier. Every emotion burst through tears. In my generation, I feel as though unless the emotion was not joy, children were not really allowed to have negative emotions. As I’ve heard from countless peers, expressing displeasure with your […]

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