I’ve started a Medium channel to better represent my research interests, and how they intersect with my life as a parent with a mental illness. I’ll still post on here things that are more personal, and will try to do so at least once a week. I’ll also cross post here so the folks who […]
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I have a feeling you’ve been reading this blog. I worried about that when I started writing on here again. I worried about expressing this side of me, which is not a side but rather an essential part of who I am. I’ve struggled with bipolar depression all of my life. It’s always with me. […]
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[Disclaimer, of sorts — I write for my own healing. Please don’t feel that you need help. I appreciate all of your support, I really really do. I just want to know that people are listening, and perhaps that I am giving voice to someone else who feels silent — that is enough for me.] […]
Read MoreMaybe everything I have been saying here and elsewhere is a big lie, I’m not actually sick, a lie I don’t even know I’m telling.
Read MoreI’ve noticed lately that I’ve been accepting friend requests from law professors. Folks perhaps that I met on the market, or just colleagues of other professors. I talk a lot about mental health on here, in particular my own struggle with bipolar II disorder. It’s concerned me a bit to widen my “friends” on here […]
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Photo courtesy of Jalon Nichols on Flickr I thought today was going to be different. Technically, it wasn’t like yesterday. It was my official first day of telework. I never left my house. Never even took a shower. Grabbed my favorite yoga pants, a t-shirt, and a comfy sweatshirt, along with my favorite pair of socks. […]
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When I’m depressed, I often do (some of) my best work. Not creative work, but work work. Work that requires less mind and more brawn. If that exists on the computer. I write (and think, but more on that below) for a living. My ability to write well is key to my livelihood. If I couldn’t […]
Read MoreThere are a lot of things I have to proud of. Degrees, kids, marriage, friends. I do those things well. But much of the time, I’m proud to get out of my bed in the morning and not get back into it until bedtime. I’m proud to take a shower and wash my face and […]
Read MoreBelieve me: I’ve counted them. A million times. Backwards, forwards, upside and out. I’ve written them down. I’ve told my friends. I’ve laid them at the altar, giving thanks and praise. My home. 1 My children. 3 My husband. 1 My job. 1 My degrees. 3 My friends. 10+ My family. 10+ My (physical) health. 20+ […]
Read MoreI work crazy long hours. The hours aren’t actually crazy, but since my commute is 1.5 hours each way, it feels crazy. I see my children in the morning before they go to school (had to work my way into that flexibility) and then for an hour or so when I get home before they […]
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Doctor Mama Esquire 