I’m Here, I Exist

When I tell someone I have bipolar 2 disorder, the shock that comes across his or her face often takes me aback. If they know me, their shock is a tad annoying. What does me saying I have bipolar disorder change for them? What does the admission trigger in their mind about what someone with bipolar […]

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NaBloPoMo – October 8: Grateful

I had a weird up and down day. It started down. I wasn’t sure about my hair. I was so tired and had a long drive and I wasn’t sure what was going to be at the other end of that drive so I was anxious. I remembered a scripture in James 1 (this is […]

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“You Can Always Get a Job”

Yesterday was one of the best experiences I’ve had in a long time. BlogHer ’14 is being held in San Jose, only about 25 minutes from my house. A college friend of mine is very well known in the blogosphere and Twitterverse and is going to be a keynote speaker at the conference. When I […]

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When “No One Way” is Really “The Only Way”

On Saturday, the New York Times published yet another upper-middle-class mother’s story of how she tried to have it all – career, marriage, kids – but found it oh, so difficult. I feel as if I’ve read hundreds of these stories over the past eight years, always hoping to get some glimmer of relevance to […]

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ABD #5: festschrift

Today was an inspiring, thought-provoking, and exhausting day. I traveled from Stanford to UC Berkeley to attend a festschrift honoring a prominent, if modest and humble, legal scholar. Festschrifts are usually reserved for scholars who are retiring, or are held after a scholar has passed away. But the organizers of this event felt that this […]

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ABD Day #4: Fake it til…and this too will pass?

At the beginning of the week, I had 221 days to complete the dissertation. The last two have been complete and total busts. As in zero words read, written, or even thought about. Instead I have been plagued by the worse anxiety I have ever experienced in my life. And I’m getting tired of it. […]

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naked

I’m starting to talk myself back into the impostor syndrome. It’s been a little over three months since my precious baby boy was born. It’s been about 12 months since I’ve made any significant headway into my work. Despite knowing the  amount of time it takes to deal with a baby in the early months and […]

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Never Never Land

I can’t. I can’t work in the “real world.” I’m going back to my world of books and ideas and theories and research. I’m getting the heck out of dodge. This summer, I’m working for a large urban public school district. My job is to analyze data and the law to create guidelines for teachers. […]

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