2014: I Think I Can

2014 will close a chapter in my life and open another. By the end of 2014, and at the age of 33, I will have been married for 9 years, have 3 children, have a JD/PhD from Stanford University. I know people think I’m nuts, but really it’s just that I don’t believe in limits. […]

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Be Born In Me

This day, I wonder how Mary felt as she waited in anxious expectation of her baby. I may never fully get it, but I pray that He is born in me as he was in Mary all those years ago. Merry Christmas everyone!  

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Progress Report

Prayer works. I talked to God, I meditated in stillness, I listened for His still, small whisper. And He moved through me, and through the advice of others. During my ten days, I cancelled all kid’s evening activities going forward, and consolidated all our credit card debt with our credit union. Saving money + saving […]

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The Kids Will Be All Right

The kids will be all right. The kids will be alright. The kids will be all right. I’m trying to convince myself of this sentence. This short sentence of five or six words, depending on how you spell “alright” (are they two different words/phrases ‘alright’ vs. ‘all right’?) It is these five or six words […]

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In the Darkness

When I am in a depression, my comfort comes once the sun goes down. The day seems unbearable and so I spend it simply waiting for the darkness. That’s what I did today. I had options to leave my house in the afternoon, but chose not to. Tried to paint, but lost the inspiration once […]

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Break Time

I’ve decided to give myself a little break. No dissertation work, or even thoughts about the dissertation. A dissertation vacation you might say. Why? Because I don’t want to end up in the hospital again, away from my family. Because I don’t want to have a miserable year, caught in a slump that has me […]

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ABD #19: Daily Bread

Hi. It’s been a minute (well five days.) I really wanted this to be every day, not counting weekends, but that’s too much to expect of myself. So it will be regular, but not necessarily daily. And that’s okay (says the reformed perfectionist). The depression has lifted. Thank God. I don’t feel constantly pulled underwater […]

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ABD #8: Wait

Wait with expectation Wait with anticipation Wait I will worship you lord While I wait Honestly, guys, when I started this series I promise it wasn’t going to be about depression and bipolar and anxiety. It was going to be about how I got through the year, in hopes that others reading this would gain […]

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ABD #7: One Week Down

Seven days later, about 3,000 words later, and I have finished my first week. I would not call it a success, but since I’m about looking forward, and not backward, I’ll just say, “Thank you Lord for giving me another chance.” Meds have been adjusted, perspective has been changed. I took my kids, thanks to […]

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What’s Going On

Wow, it’s been a minute since I’ve updated this blog. Not for lack of things going on, though. Probably the biggest issue with keeping it up is time, and since I’ve had a full-time job this summer, time has been at such a premium. This is the first full-time job I’ve had in four years, […]

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