list: to do. updated.

(in no particular order of importance, because i generally only do important things. learned that from the seven habits guy. deadlines are noted.) 1. respond to some emails from some very nice people who deserve a response. 2. contemplate why i’m feeling so glum. 1. write 25-page critical theory paper on “the problem with parental […]

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can i start lent late?

I know, even asking the question is pretty trifling of me. But even Jesus asked His Father why he had forsaken him, right? I’m sunk to a new low of egotism. But hear me out — For lent, you are supposed to make a sacrifice. To me, that means giving up something that is difficult, […]

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the om in me

As I mentioned last week, if I wasn’t doing what I’m doing now, I imagine I would be a yoga teacher, full-time. I started routinely practicing yoga in 2003. My best friend had been going to a beautiful studio in Germantown (a neighborhood in Philly right next to the one we’d grown up in) and […]

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sunday haiku

Sinus storm here. Neti pot in, flowing out. And legs up the wall.   A haiku is an un-rhymed verse genre. In Japanese, haiku has five syllables in the first line, seven in the second, and five again in the third – the two sevens at the end (they count sounds, not strictly syllables, however, […]

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in another life…

I would have been a yoga teacher. I almost was in this life. It’s a long story, and I’m bone tired. So I’m not going to tell it. It’s interesting and tragic and sad and hopeful and honest. But I’ll say this: yoga is the only thing that has consistently kept me off the ledge. […]

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i don’t live for my kids

A couple of days ago, when I started my 25 to 30 countdown, Lilian asked if having children has impacted my will to live. The most simple and direct answer is no. I don’t answer this question lightly; I’ve actually thought about it a lot. Since having children, a lot about how I live my […]

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letter to my firstborn

Dear Big A, I don’t know what today’s challenge is, but today, you, my baby, turned five. You, Big A, don’t know how much you changed my life; you, Big A, don’t know how eternally grateful I am that you made me a mommy. I wrote about your birth here, here, and here. Even though […]

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it’s winter break. i’m breaking. kinda.

I’m trying though. Really I am. Finished the Christmas shopping. Not doing any household projects. Well, only a few. Only the necessary ones, the ones that are just so annoying undone. But I must take heed. The body will take care of itself. And maybe I’m doing more than I should be. ‘Cause what started […]

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give me a break

Breaks during the academic year are lifesavers for me. I cannot function without them. I try to start the quarter off healthily, eating well, exercising, sleeping, doing more by doing less. But it all goes to a virtual kitty litter box (smelly, stinky) about three weeks in, when the pace doesn’t slow down, not even […]

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Drowning in Fear

Crossposted on Cocoamamas! Today was our first day of swimming lessons. While Ahmir, my 4 year old, was like a fish out of water – scared, timid, shaky – at least he resembled a fish. I was amazed at what the instructor got my notoriously skittish little one to do – let go of the side (while […]

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