I am Going to Therapy Today and I Really Don’t Want To

April 5, 2021.Reading time 6 minutes.

Cross posted on Medium Image: https://unsplash.com/photos/nJupV3AOP-U But want and need are two different things. And I need this. As I write this, tears are on the verge of spilling over already puffy eyes. The clench in my stomach and pain in my back are making it hard to think. I’m trying to do busy work […]

old year resolutions

December 4, 2020.Reading time 3 minutes.

I’m going to try my very best to take a social media break through the end of the year. This time of the year gets me both hypomanic and depressed. I’m energized by the shopping, and shopping is a huge issue for me when I’m hypomanic. I’m depressed by the darkness and the COVID circumstances. […]

Me and Fear and Flying

July 24, 2018.Reading time 6 minutes.

I’m in fear. Afraid. Terrified. Scared. I’m supposed to be happy, flying, resting on a cloud of gumdrops and jelly beans. Celebrating. Elated. I have a GREAT job, the job I most wanted when I was on the job market. For the first time in my life, I can go to the grocery store without […]

I’m not the best

November 5, 2016.Reading time less than 1 minute.

I’m not the best artist. I’m not the best singer. I’m not the best writer. But when I create, I feel so good. When I take letters and words or paper and pencil or a song that’s been on my heart and use them to create…pure joy. And that matters more than being the best.

Nightime = Bathtime

December 15, 2014.Reading time 3 minutes.

Photo courtesy of Erica Nicol on Flickr As a kid, I always took baths. Everyone in my family did. One day in a science class — biology, chemistry, something — a teacher told us that to save water we should try to limit our showers to five minutes. I raised my hand and asked what […]

NaBloPoMo – October 5: Crunches

October 6, 2014.Reading time 6 minutes.

Note: I’m participating in BlogHer’s NaBloPoMo for October. Goal is to post every day this month. I’ve missed two days, but I’m getting back on track! There are two areas in my life where I have very little confidence. This is surprising to many people, because I don’t come off as a person who suffers (much) from a […]

To Sleep or Not to Sleep?

June 28, 2014.Reading time 8 minutes.

People often ask me if I don’t sleep because I’m always doing so much. They’d likely be surprised to find out that I get more sleep than most people I know. To sleep or not to sleep is not really a question for me. I sleep. **** The first night I spent in the hospital […]