It’s So Dark

I learned something new today. Apparently, I hate Standard Time. I’m not sure about everyone else, but I’d always thought I hated “Daylight Savings Time.” That unenviable morning in early November that gives us an extra hour of sleep but extra waking hours of darkness. But that moment is not when Daylight Savings Time begins. […]

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Progress

(noun) forward or onward movement toward a destination. (verb) move forward or onward in space or time. When I’m depressed, I prefer the dark, the night. The sun has gone down, the noise of the world quiets a bit. I’m no longer alone. I’m surrounded by the sounds of my kids and husband. The house […]

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Letter to My Crush

In 2011, I wrote a version of this letter to my crush. Tomorrow is a special day, and now I know more. So here’s an updated version. dear crush: it’s been a long day. i know its been a long one for you too. i’m so tired that my eyeballs hurt, hurt from the effort needed […]

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How Being the Default Parent Is Your Fault

After venting about how I was coordinating some kid-based activity from 50 miles and 90 minutes away from the action, all while my spouse was zero miles and zero minutes away from the action, my co-worker sent me an article. It was like reading about my life. In her article, The Default Parent, M. Blazoned discussed […]

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I’m Here, I Exist

When I tell someone I have bipolar 2 disorder, the shock that comes across his or her face often takes me aback. If they know me, their shock is a tad annoying. What does me saying I have bipolar disorder change for them? What does the admission trigger in their mind about what someone with bipolar […]

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Humbled…and Tired

First, let me say how humbled I am that y’all are still reading. That I’m still getting emails from folks wanting to connect. That my stories and experiences are making a difference. I’m totally and completely humbled. Second, as you can imagine, I’m exhausted. Tired. Writing a dissertation in a year while nurturing a marriage […]

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Go shortay…it’s ya birthday…we gon party like its ya birthday

Well, it was my birthday. And it was fabulous. Baseball game with kids and fellow 30-something’s in the backyard. I was obviously the MVP — got on base at every at bat. Then followed by karaoke at what I thought was going to be a happening bar but what turned out to be a little […]

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I’m done with housework

There is no reason why I should ever do any housework. Once your children hit 8 and 6, and your husband is able-bodied, they become the housekeepers. So when I do ANYTHING, I expect my children to appreciate my efforts. In case they do not, I leave them a note.

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Break Time

I’ve decided to give myself a little break. No dissertation work, or even thoughts about the dissertation. A dissertation vacation you might say. Why? Because I don’t want to end up in the hospital again, away from my family. Because I don’t want to have a miserable year, caught in a slump that has me […]

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ABD #10: I Did It

I did it. I stayed out of the bed all day. I worked from 9:15 – 11:15 am. I coded an interview. I’m ready to do the analytical write-up tomorrow. I walked home, turned on some music, and sang from 11:30 – 1:15 pm. I met with my son’s teacher from 1:30 – 2pm, rediscovered […]

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