I’m Bipolar but I’m Not

October 14, 2018.Reading time 4 minutes.

Maybe everything I have been saying here and elsewhere is a big lie, I’m not actually sick, a lie I don’t even know I’m telling.

I’ve Got That Bipolar Feeling…

May 14, 2015.Reading time 6 minutes.

One reason I’ve always done well in school is due to the structure. Many graduate students working on a dissertation know this feeling well: as soon as the coursework is done, and time is unstructured by classes and papers, one can find an infinite number of things to do besides writing the dissertation. Now, I […]

To Sleep or Not to Sleep?

June 28, 2014.Reading time 8 minutes.

People often ask me if I don’t sleep because I’m always doing so much. They’d likely be surprised to find out that I get more sleep than most people I know. To sleep or not to sleep is not really a question for me. I sleep. **** The first night I spent in the hospital […]

Juris Doctor

June 19, 2014.Reading time 6 minutes.

Five years ago I stepped into my first law school class. I’d been at Stanford for two years already, completing my course work for my PhD. A secret most of my law school classmates don’t know is that I only did 1/2 of the 1L curriculum in my first year. Instead of taking five core […]

I Had To Write This Down.

March 6, 2014.Reading time 5 minutes.

This morning I work up and decided I wanted to be a writer. Not a sociologist or a lawyer or an academic. Just a writer. I went downstairs, had my two cups of coffee, took my kids to school, and proceeded to clean my kitchen cabinets while my toddler took all the pots and pans […]

Mad Mommy: The What Ifs

January 14, 2010.Reading time 10 minutes.

(Cross Posted on CocoaMamas) She lost her babies because of a what if. Actually several what ifs. “I couldn’t see living the rest of my life worrying and wondering what had happened, or what if she hadn’t taken her medicine, or what if she relapsed,” said Ms. Baker, who has four children of her own. […]

gloom and doom

June 16, 2009.Reading time 3 minutes.

Sunday night I experienced the worst mental and physical symptoms I have ever felt in my life, and I thought I was going to die. It’s no surprise that I suffer from mental illness, exactly what I’m still not sure. Major Depressive Disorder is the old standby, but I’m starting to think it may be […]